I'm leaving

On a jet plane.
Don't know when I'll be back again.

Oh wait. Sometime in September then again in November.

Things change in the blink of an eye.

It seems like just last week I was looking up at my teachers, wondering when I would grow up. It's as if only yesterday, I was sitting at the table, memorizing words for UPSR. Perhaps an hour ago, I cheered for my PMR results, minutes ago that I left Form 5 and then seconds in which I received my STPM results.

Now I'm leaving for University.

University. I'm living in a sense of surreality. Any moment now, I expect to wake up. Oh and I don't think I'll be 12 again. I'll be 40, married with three kids and thinking of adopting another one. I'll have done nothing important in my life, helped no one but myself and will be forgotten as soon as I pass on.

It scares me that time can slip by without you noticing. You think, I'll do this when I have the time. When I have the time.

When I have the time, I'll design my own clothes.
When I have the time, I'll paint a masterpiece.
When I have the time, I'll learn another language.
When I have the time, I'll master writing with my other hand.
When I have the time, I'll date.
When I have the time, I'll go to church.

I'll cosplay. I'll dance again. I'll write for the newspaper. I'll sell my art. I'll master Trigonometry. I'll learn to drive. I'll play the guitar. I'll spend time with my family. I'll devote myself to God.

When I have the time.


Guess what. I do have the time.

I have the time, you have the time.
24 hours in a day.
7 days a week.
52 weeks a year.
All the years of your life.

How long have you been saying 'When I have the time'? Don't say it anymore.

Instead, say 'Now, I will'

Now, I will design my own clothes.
Now, I will paint a masterpiece.
Now, I will learn another language.
Now, I will master writing with my other hand.
Now, I will date.
Now, I will go to church.

Now, I will do all the things I wanted to do, but never did because I thought I didn't have time.

I've only completed two decades of my life. Time, is on my side. He's sitting there, watching me, waiting for me to get off my couch, away from the TV and go out in search of the next big Adventure.

Today, is a good day. You have the time.

What are you going to do?